RIP BABAJI!

its been about 15 years since nana died....i was 5 then, I didn't really understand what is death then...I STILL DON'T! babaji is no more..it hasn't sunk in...and I don;t want it to sink in. Ahh i can't believe it...he is gone....thats death....one day i ll comprehend it. I have lost all my hard work, that was his legacy, coupled with honesty( i still have it) but no more hard work. so i will go to india....for babaji but what would really have made him happy would be to see me become a somebody, like papa like taya...to live his dream...through sheer hard work...its not for me or my confidence anymore its for him...justifying his expectations i m lucky that i was able to talk to him on monday, when he talked to me that second time....those will prob be his last words to me, there was something different to them!!! ahh...i cudnt see him in his last days, but i m not sad, his memory, like nana's will always always stay with me I will be strong, now i m older maybe for the first time in my life its time to support my family !! stay strong arjun:)