the confidence and the desire is back??

SOO!!! YES I CAN SAY WE ARE THE FUCKING CHAMPIONS AND I PLAYED a critical part in it....And also for the first time I can say I LOVEEE nus...I love eusoff!!! seriously i can never never forget the faces i saw in yesterday's match, my teamates, those who played/those who didnt play the supporters.....its like everything clicked.

I really admire Desi Dus on one end ...his commitment, if i can give the same commitment i would really be a somebody, whether in sports or in academics...or in whatever else...i still remember at the start of the semester- when i was stressed and he was just hitting the ball around..ALONE ...fucking inspiring!! thats what i wanna imbed.

secondly, the KR match, 2-0 down.....and i lay it to fate i can be a good keeper but never win, and then RENJI....the way he stepped up....more than all the shouting.....it was what he said.....we are 2-0 down, someone gotta step up why not us?? That statement, i can prob never forget it in my life..NEVER!!

then came the epic yesterday's match....even though me and jasdeep combined to concede fucked up goals in kr game...i just love playing with him...and the highlight was the double team on bairam and how it lead to the goal. ILYASA WAS fantastic.....again not just the skill...the fearlessness, actually i share the feeling with him...the constant feeling of defeat and finally overcoming it ....it was phenomenal!! winning yesterday 'THAT SAVE'

then what i remember from yesterday are primarily 2 saves....the first one against jesper...IVP counts for nothing....he got psychoed...i didnt react and he didnt know what to do..and I SEIZED MY MOMENT and then against bairam....he looked at me i looked at him and i could out manouvre him....

and then lastly i have to remind myself...there is vast scope to improve...#21 scored past me twice and this just cant happen....sooo i have to step up for next year.

Secondly i have mental strength...i can bounce back...i just have to apply it to academics....I wanna study like fuck and i wanna lose weight real bad, because next yr i wanna play many manay many sports for EUSOFF!!

so lets go arjun, finally...Life's good and this time i m saying whole heartedly....i will take this to fire me back to life and i can do it...can do whatever i want...just PERSERVERENCE AND PATIENCE.....it is a good omen...

I have the Match ball to remind myself i m good.....i can step-up now is the time and i will do it:D