INDIAA!!

Ok it was an unproductive day, but no more wasting time thinking of why was it unproductive....rather use the night to replace the day..:)

anw...talking MAMA....feeling like going to india so freaking badly...anything which vaguely represents some degree of getting away from this place. The next month should be fun...hopefully?? And i need a very serious rethink on life. Limiting expectations and working towards achieving it.

All the happy times in india await...and till then the last fucking week here...i would try my best!!! have to take exams so might as well do it as best as i can...thats what i tell people, will implement myself for once. A lot of things to look forward to, a disastorous semester just gone past, nothing is working in uni..so maybe have to make it work.

WIll TRY HARDER...cos i dun wanna live the holidays in guilt..no other motivation but that is a huge huge huge one:) 25th NOVEMBER FTW:D:D

similarities.

Just finished watching Legends of Cricket: Steve Waugh.

The one thing I heard most commonly in the video is he is a 'tough nut'.

To quote Tony Cozier: he had a legendary mental strength. He sucked at the short ball, and was even sacked from the team, but over a period of 90 test matches, he left it totally go....what concentration...IMBA SHIT!

I find similarities in him, one of the least graceful/technical batsman with one of the greatest mental strength, if not the best.

Further, by his admissions he wanted to be good at everything, one of the biggest problems facing me now. BUT I HAVE TO ASK MYSELF, DO I HAVE THE SAME MENTAL STRENGTH.

Every single day i feel like quitting, cos NUS sucks/ CS sucks....whatever why I am so fucking noob...none of my dreams will work out, without mental strength. I CAN DO THIS.

I shouldn't compare with people who study 10 times as much. The next time I will even think about cap is when i m sure i have given my 100%...whining wun help..must have that fighting spirit...the one which exemplified waugh, exemplified australia.

I first watched him play allan donald when i was 6...and i saw the same clip today...and now that it dawned on me...that he was a great batsman not only because he was gifted, but he had that something in him...I wanna emulate it...in my life, dun give up...optimize time, help people but most importantly, try my best now, very very best...in CS...in exams in general...in everything!

Makes me truly inspired..

as he puts it:

"You've got to have dreams to keep you going."

Something which precedes the feeling of feeling low, very very low:(

Yes, I haven't really lost the mugging momentum yet, surely I can't even afford to lose it..since Sunday day/night wasn't entirely productive. I really really have to put in more output per unit time as soonish there will only be 2 weeks to go...and after that 1..SCARY PROSPECT!!!

BUT I WILL SURVIVE....with CS approaching soonish, i think i m moving towards another low phase but this time i wouldn't let this happen at all...

The one thing I am most annoyed with myself..is wasting Sunday which was far far away fromm my busines...isolation doesnt mean isolation from friends...it really has to be COMPLETE...and TOTAL!!! and maybe i should really control my craving for goal.com!!

Ok softball is totally of my plate....one more floorball training to go

so for today...i will finish physics....watch the CS webcast....go back bathe n do kriya..then go back at 7 am to sleep!!! really time for sacrifices...no choice...then come back from embassy and sleep sopme more....then dun sleep tomorrow night..after training:)

CAN DO IT ARJUN!! for once i trust myself..

and another RESOLUTION....no more CRICINFO OR GOAL.COM/EN for this week...not at all...NONEEEE!!! I CAN LIVE THROUGH THIS!!