Momentum

Ok, today marked the last softball training for this year. It was not bad...but most importantly, despite all the confusion there was the 'I GAVE MY BEST FEELING'. Getting out the first time was super idiotic...damn idiotic..but i more than made up for it by..doing whatever was required.

OK and also had a good sleep and also a good MEAL:D...but then no kriya..it is still as elusive as ever..i m not doing it more and more ...and the feeling is worse when i know i need it!!

for the past 2 days( rather nights) i have managed to garner some mugging momentum....but i can do better..i have to strive for better. So start and finish EG part 1 today( finally). Also i would do the econs tut...and then copy lab when i m tired to the max....

But I have to take care of my health there are exactly 3 weeks left and a lot can be accomplished within this time frame...i just have to continue to strive for the best..VERY BEST! thank god i have found a good place to studyy...and maybe 2..counting the yih lounge:)

Though i realize being nocturnal is not the best thing for the body but i have to back myself...and just try and maximize productivity!!

I CAN DO IT!!bit by bit..slowly...i can and will survive.

Random 1

Ok I am only blogging cos i m feeling random and kinda lonely, and i am tempted to log-on to facebook which kinda sucks!!!

Had a good breakfast with Nat n Siva, rarely do i find friends in hall, like siva mentioned as well...but oh well, treasure what i have.

Ok Sin1: watched HIMYM, Sin 2: Dun even wanna mention it( though i will make up for it using kriya). Ok looks like i can optimize time, if i study study study, i have understood capacitors n inductors, but no stoppping, i have to take a huge leap in EG, and get rid of the feeling of uselessness, ususally it is at this time, my week goes haywire and i cant recover, but i will try my best to make the best use of every freaking single day.!!!

Ok i will add on to this as the day goes on, but hope i stay productive...

Ok i finished 2 topics which is good:D:D but i m yet to do tutorial..ok tonight sleep..LATEEEE LATEEE...unless i feel burnt-out then i would go for training..but seriously so much to study...and for a change i understand whats happening..concentrattion levels could be better...but then cant always complain..overall was quite GOOD...so far...continue the form..exams are too near to be true...give-up everything already!!!

I will 'rush' to library after lecture...and see how much can i study

interesting read(S)

courtesy yeesian:

I shall put it here, lest i forget, i m done with emails, time to study:)

http://www.mitadmissions.org/topics/life/workplay_balance_at_mit/50_things.shtml

President: yet another...nice take no life

http://canvasheart.wordpress.com/2010/10/26/don%E2%80%99t-work-avoid-telling-the-truth-be-hated-love-someone/

Getting it back on track...SACRIFICES!!

Ok, despite studying well no Friday and Saturday, my life spiralled out of control Sunday onwards and even on Monday and despite my BEST(?) efforts, I have not been able to get it back on control. Sunday and Monday were bad, DOWNRIGHT BAD!!!!

Ok done with complaining, I PROMISE MYSELF NO FACEBOOK/MSN...until this sunday night 2359....and above all i would work towards achieving this objective. Facebook is deactivated, now the challenge is not to re-activate it. At this rate, i would even pay to keep my facebook from being re-activated. But oh-well. have to show real self-control on msn...and day by day i can last until sunday.

Ok, because of my own mistakes/ burnout..i have wasted more than 24 H..whats gone is gone, now i will rescue what i can, cos i dun wanna fail the next CS..ok which is still far far away..

I am not setting any goals cos i cant even follow my own goals, which sucks...but ok i will work like a machine until 4am on Tuesday..I really have to sleep ...sacrifice to suceed? and then dun stay in my room..now that laundry is done, its out of the way.

I can really be more productive than forever lying on my bed....ok GO ARJUN GO ARJUN GO ARJUN... a LOTTTTT TO CATCH UP....slowly..bit by bit..i can...doing logic gates & catching up on part 1 at the same time...everyday is an opportunity to study and make the best use of it..

and as a punishment...wun watch HIMYM...until friday...BIG BANG ..until sunday...GO MEEE

hope i live upto to my own expectations that i m failing everyone else's....maybe i m too harsh on myself, but cant afford to have a cap of below 4...for sureee

PROMISES TO MYSELF!!

Ok, i successfully reduced my workload, now lie 2 very very challenging days !!!

so even though i have wasted time, I will write my commitment to myself

Come back from doc...EMAIL the TUTOR...bathe n do kriya

FINISH CS tutorial 2! MUST FINISH.

Wednesday night: 930-1130...STUDY! finish math tut 7

Thursday morning: 530-730: START reading/familiarizing myself with tutorial 3.

10- 1130....DO EG....make summary notes for the topic.

330-6: Finish Tutorial 3.

Night: 10-1130: start reading Math Chapter: After Integration.....

Friday morning: wake up at 6: Watch webcast of CS lecture in the bus...MUST WATCH.

Back by 930: 10-12: finish reading the topic AFTER integration.

230- 5: Do Math tutorial 8!! MUST DO. after that...TAKE A BREAK!

7-10: CS tutorial 4: Session 1!!

SLEEP EARLY!

Ok aim till here: see how it works out...hopefully well...tons of things to study..hopefully i can take it and hopefully i can get mc now...HOPE FOR THE BEST. i really haven been giving my best...time to step up and i can do it:D

NEW BEGINNING!!

ok i reduced one thing from my workload, ok effectively 2( including softball)

Yeah, studies is the priority, I still have the passion of doing something through NES & ISAGE and I will continue giving my 100% no matter what the rest have to say/do. I can only do my best, but not in everything so i have to narrow it down to a few things so here go my priorities and short term aims, i will work to do anything for them.

1) STUDIES- study to get 4 A's and AT LEAST C for CS...there would be no miracles and i have to change and perform

2) floorball- to be MVP keeper at IHG...if it exists..if not play well enough to convince them of a stay at EH

3) Making JC outreach as good as i can, while hitting the desired number of participants. CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN.

I am kinda happy with myself with the way I handled this situation. First time I actually was involved in an error of this gross magnitude, when Ramkumar totally backed off from the mistake, and then it was scary how everyone was looking for my head. But also appreciate how tang/grace/dexin/minhui/xt helped me through this:)

But we have to learn through this and move on.

Ok from now on, room is my new mugging habitat!!! i will use it to optimum effect!!

ok finish physics lab then sleep..begin with CS in the morning...5 hrs of sleep/day..i can do it...can survive!! ART OF LIVING and watch diet and i can live through it with some sleep in the day ...

WALK THE TALK..

ok so i have psyched myself enough, even tried to cut myself from the world ( relatively)

but then staying my room just doesn't work at all...so yeah i will still try my best of what is left!

so the 1.5 hours...of 'ALL IN' sessions start tonight..test run...

start with something i m most comfortable in...after the 1.5 h..i ll sleep for 15 min...entertain myself for 5...and then basically get back to work again...

see how it works ...but i ll try

ok i m happy for the first time i 'created time' I finished eating super fast and as a result gifted myself sleep.

OK TIME TO WALK THE TALK...i have been trying to motivate so many people and motivate myself..now is the time to put things into perspective and i shall update this every 1.5 hr to remind myself of the progress..GO ME!!

LIFE...Dielemma

Firstly, I THOROUGHLY ENJOYED TODAY, though i dunno if life is about enjoyment anymore.

YEESIAN, RISHABH, GARY, PRAE, CHRISTINE.....and the list goes on...TRYING TO HELP me....but what about HELPING MYSELF...dun even feel sad about DIEING...maybe i just need to see the marks to believe myself.

HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

ok stop emoing....what i learnt today

Negotiation- the last slide caught my eye... continue what you are doing right, improve what you haven't, and think about what you didnt even think about. Anyways the talk was meaningful, i think though the cab was a waste of money .

Another thing he mentioned about LISTENING....talk less...LISTEN....no wonder i screwed up infront of addison today...cos i talk talk talk...also moto...ANNOY PEOPLE LESS

but i somehow still feel good.....i will finish NES TODAY....and then give 100% for singtel...sleep EXACTLY 6 hrs 15 mins...DO KRIYA...DO INTEGRATION....and then do CS after school...MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST!!!! tomorrow i will make it happen..tutorial 2 n 3....no choice already..JUST DO IT JUST DO IT..

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after all i can even TRY HEADER!!

live upto people's expectations if not mine, nag renyi...and TALK MORE TO PARENTS...

update again tmrw...

Timetable for Week 9

Ok here it is, What I plan to do for Monday and Tuesday!

Sunday Night 1:30 AM: 5AM- Finish Math Tutorial- Integration!

5-550 AM- SLEEP! 6-8- read notes on MOI

845- 1030- Mastering Physics!

Head to school - Print Lab report...Read if briefly....

After Lab- help out with the 'dry run'

ANSWER EMAILS!!!

SLEEP- latest 9pm

Tuesday

Go singtel

Come back and do section 4 Phasors for EG! Read notes in the bus....but finish tutorial BEFORE going for talk/lecture....must be efficient but can manage:)

After econs lecture....make use of the time like 100%..come back and settle stuff for the bond signing BEFORE TRAINING!!! and then sleep!!:)

OK THATS IT STEP BY STEP..i can survive:D:D:D POSITIVE ENERGY n POSITIVE EMOTION!!! i wun run away from things, face them head on..JGD:)

HELPLESS!

Super sleep deprived...

Taking into account my last 2 chat convoss, since I woke up, both just went on to demoralize me TTM. Whatever yeesian says, I can't agree with it more, but how do I do it. HOW DO I FREAKING GO ABOUT DOING IT. its 1230 now, I am going to study, I am going to KRIYA, and do it every single day, to empower me....to HELP ME. I have no choice but to cut myself from the world. NO MSN or FACEBOOK until Thursday night.

GIVE ME POWER. MAY I HAVE DISCIPLINE!

I dunno what my fucking problem is...I dun have a gf ..nor any girl who i emo about...yet why am soo nosy to care about other people's business. WASTE MY TIME...ENERGY....i m just better off not going to school at all...I should just stay in my room and make the best use of the time.

I dunno how will i survive this tough period, but I don't have a choice, I just have to .

JC outreach is going fine, but ISAGE &NES is tending towards a disaster. Maybe rishabh is right, I need less of a pro-active role, and and...I NEED SLEEP!

I dunno how uni life is going, if i m liking anything or is everything is just a bit too much for me to handle

but c'mon ARJUN PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH- FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!! DUN GIVE UP!!! I CAN n WILL SURVIVE...