and after yet another of my Mumma's constant 'reminders' something stuck me...and stuck me real bad. WHAT THE FUCK HAS HAPPENED TO ME??? I am like languishing through NUS...for instance Math....5/10...it isn't the marks...but i was lucky to even get that? Like i have no focus...no drive...
The only person who i think is close to myself...is Gao Zheng!!! Now what I have become, I wouldn't even think of comparing myself with him....wouldn't even dare to compare with him....
When we went to US....I finished 3 Mathematics textbooks - BEFORE school even started. If someone to do it now I would 'look-down' on that person as a nerd.....What have I become??
Yes, it has not been all-bad...I have developed a strength of character....but then i can't hide behind the fact that I have become downright lazy....there can be no excuse for reduction in hard work ...and unnnecessary self-belief
Rishabh said: " OK ah, you don't work hard as the rest in the team but you have critical ideas and creativity" That is just experience....sheer experience from my hard work in the past and once that 'dries-off' i ll be left with nothing.
So again....what have I become into...i have turned into...whatever
but make every moment counts...live in the present....and maybe if i can achieve it i m sure i ll end up successful- otherwize i need to be ok life gives me:(
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